Just some thoughts...

I was feeling pretty down last week, but am now feeling extremely productive. I have been working for my old boss all week, I have been making money and this weekend Morgan and I are driving a Toyota Tundra up to Oregon because it needs 2000 miles on the odometer before it is delivered to a client. My boss Dave has a job going on Monday and is paying us to do this, so I am very excited and nervous! It should be interesting to say the least, but Morgan and I are both up for the challenge and adventure.

I should write more often because I usually keep my feelings bottled up. For some reason I feel like if I don't say things out loud, then they aren't real. I know this is unhealthy, but it is who I am. I have realized more and more lately how odd I actually am and how unlike other people I am. I obsess over everything, I get anxious over the smallest things and I believe I have a form of adult ADD. I will be conversing with someone and change subjects so often because my brain switches and I can't focus. I have a hard time prioritizing my thoughts and activities in the day that most days I shut down, which has a lot to do with the anxiety and depression. I feel like I should be doing more with my time so I bombard myself with things to do, which ultimately leaves me with a list of things piled up in my brain that I did not accomplish. I don't like using my OCD as an excuse or as a crutch so most days I forge through, but it is always present.

I feel better, just getting these thoughts out of my head.