I don't really want to write about this, but I think it is good for me to get it off my chest.
I had an ultrasound on Tuesday to check on the fibroids and the placenta previ(which has not corrected itself). Stella looked amazing and and is now 3 lbs 6 oz, which puts her chubby butt in the 65th percentile for weight. It was our 4th ultrasound and Morgans 3rd time asking the technician if she was still a girl... she is :)Then, on Wednesday while running errands, I received a call from our doctor. She asked if Morgan was with me, he wasn't so she had me call back when we were together because she wanted to go over the results of the ultrasound and talk about how we were going to deal with the remainder of my pregnancy. I rushed home, called Morgan and he was home within the hour. In my mind, I thought she was going to put me on modified bed rest because of the previa, so that's what I was expecting.
I definitely wasn't expecting her to tell me what she did. Because the placenta is so low and because my fibroids are so low on the uterus they fear that I will bleed a lot during the c-section. They are afraid that the fibroids will keep the uterus from contracting and if the uterus doesn't contract, I could bleed profusely. If this happens, which she is saying there is a high chance this could happen, they will have to give me a blood transfusion and a hysterectomy. I cried.. a lot and I have been crying on and off ever since. I never thought I would be faced with anything like this. I am 29 and in good health. I am so excited for my baby girl to get here, but the thought of never giving her siblings makes me sick to my stomach. I'm scared and right now all I can do is pray that everything will go the way I want it to, but I will not know anything until she is being born.
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All I can say is that I love you and I pray for your health and well-being daily. You will be fine and you will give birth to a wonderful baby girl and we will love her and surround her with all the love she deserves. By the way, Bridget says Stella is kicking like a maniac. She's a tough one, just like her amazing mommy. I love you and just can't wait to see you and give you the biggest hug in the whole world. I'll even rub your shoulders. Love, Dad
I am totally praying for you Jill, Just keep the faith and it will work itself out. You are an awesome and incredibly strong women, everything will work out.
Oh girl, I wish I could give you a hug too. But the WORST thing you can do right now is worry, so dont! And I know it's easier said than done, but just focus on what an absolute mirable Stella is. And not to downplay what doctors say, but going through everything with my mom...doctors say things, and I know they need to, but they don't know everything & they don't know every outcome (cross that bridge when you get there) I want to share this verse with you...got me through SO much with having my babies and everything with my mom.
1Cor 2:5 ~ "That your faith should not rest on the wisdom of men, but in the power of God."
Praying everything works out & I agree with your daddy...you are a tough chick! Praying for the BEST!!!
Jill, it's good to write about it. Even if it doesn't change anything, it helps you process it I think. I love you so much and I am here for you no matter what.
OK I am just trying this out its UK,, and I am sure everthing is going to be fine,,, Alica and I think about you everyday,, and look forward to your visit soon.. see you in the summer ..Love UK and aunt Alicia
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