Potty training.

I think if I wasn't pregnant and emotional, I would be handling this potty training thing a lot better.  It's really one of the  most annoying things ever.  I don't know if I am doing things right and I am constantly receiving unsolicited advice from pretty much everyone.  Pull-ups or undies? Toilet in the living room or in the bathroom? Pants on, pants off?  Should I put her in pull ups when we leave the house, or should I just fucking wing it? 

On Tuesday (New Year's Day) I had an emotional breakdown.  I have had these before, but this one lasted all day and into the night.  Everything made me angry, then cry, which eventually led to to a full fledged panic attack.  I am an anxious and obsessive person by nature. When I am not pregnant, I am on anti anxiety medication.  I don't do pregnancy well because of these factors.  I have never actually experience an anxiety attack before.  It was weird.  I laid down on the couch after putting Stella down and couldn't get comfortable. My body felt jumpy and my breathing started to get out of sync.  I turned to Morgan and told him I didn't feel right.  I tried to calm down, but the more I tried, the worse it got.  I all of the sudden felt an overwhelming urge to throw up (which hasn't happened since my first trimester). I ran to the bathroom and vomited 5 times in a row.  It was massive and unexpected. Since then I have felt a bit better, but still off. 

I just want Stella to pee and poop in the toilet.  I want my anxiety to go away and I want to feel normal, whatever that may be.

Stella Style

Stella is one of those toddlers who wears random articles of clothing and loves accessories. I have been waiting for this time to come and it has been so worth the wait!

Grover loves Jamba Juice.

30 days of pictures

So my new goal for this blog is to post at least one picture a day for 30 days.  I feel like so much happens in our days and I am forgetting so much.  Here are a couple pictures from yesterday and Stella's school picture, which I think is awesome.  There were 2 and in the other she is hysterically crying.  She was supposed to get her picture taken on a pony, but refused to get near it!

Stella's speech has been on fast forward lately. She is repeating everything and is constantly bringing us picture books to read. She points to the pictures and we tell her what everything is. She is starting to point and say what things are on her own! I love this unique little girl more than I can even describe. She has been testing us lately, throwing fits and has been in time-out numerous times, but she is such a sweet, funny and loving girl. She marches to the beat of her own drum and I love it! The red sock and tutu in the below pictures were all her idea!